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But what if, they are your beloved ones who you can never say bye to them ...? 

Honestly, I really think that... you are really unreasonable this time.

today during dinner, i tried to bring up the conversation about my leaving home after graduated,

I was rejected immediately with no reason except: your home is not that far away. Don't talk about it anymore, i say no,  and no is no.

the reason I want to live alone is that I want to grow up, at least try to.

I am 23, and I want to be my own director, i'm ready to make bigger decision for myself or take more responsibility, 

and i want to be free as a grwon person. 

i never got the chance to say it out loud, because you don't listen.

everytime i try to have a conversation, or to ask for advise, it stopped when you finished your expression, 

you don't listen to mine, not to say even try to understand. 

i'm not trying to get away from you, 

it dosen't mean i don't love you or i don't need you, 

it has NOTHING to do with getting married, 

it's only about me want to grow up, be an independent person. 

i've figured that i tend to stay easy when i know you guys are around, 

i don't want that, i need to get up and do something, by knowing i'm the responsibility of my own.

it's about me goin after my dream. Yes, you have doubt and you have the reason to do that, 

but i know i got some talent and i have to try. 

however, you stopped listen, long time ago.

my reason is never good enough for you to support me.

I'm never resonable.

i'm sorry, i know it hurt when i say  i want to leave. 

but you have to understand, it has nothing to do with loving you guys.

and you, you should stop being silent.

and so do I.

may God judge my heart, so i won't lie.